Tag Archive: fear


I wonder
sometimes,
thinking-
about you,
how you’re
doing.
Are you, really
happy? I
used to know
you, your dreams,
desires, the smile,
when you thought,
of the future.
It’s here,
still smiling,
and I…
wonder.

wide eyed and bushy tailed,
once upon a time.

The hills became higher,
mountains.

free
climbing
now.
Every
hand hold,
along 
     the 
        way-
A betrayal
of the deepest
of me.

selfish lovers
with your
stabbing knives and steely grins.
haunting.

I challenge you.

Be
gone.
With your
“tomorrows” that never come,
promises that
never were.

You-
with your
words-
Platitudes-
Thieves of my heart.

Unworthy of the love,
I freely gave,
of me,
I freely gave,
freely-
blindly-
gave.

“More! More!”
you cry.
poured out,
an offering.
My sea, to your-
droplets.

Transition.

I.
defy.
you.

Basking,
with a true
lover.

These feelings,
swelling, growing,
deep,
inside me.
resentment,
anger,
loss,
jealousy.

Know it,
I do not,
feel it,
absolutely.
Question it?
Certainly.

When,
I ask,
does it
shift
from love,
into uncertainty
of love?

When,
does disrespect,
warrant,
resentment?
Is it jealousy,
or my reaction,
to a lack of respect?

Are these feelings
ever warranted?

I sit,
think,
and,
as always,
question.